A haunting from the past

On my ride to college, i saw a girl with her back facing me...and all i could do was stare at her because she reminded of me of someone i knew, someone i used to have feelings for and admire. All i could ask were questions inside my mind. Could that really be her? Could she really be looking for me? Is this a dream? Is this an illusion? I heard she went back to the same school as a visitor, the same one we went to together. All i could feel was pain and confusion. She rejected me perhaps because of the environment she was in. If we see each other again, i would turn away....i refuse to be sucked into a delusion, i refuse to see her face and hear her telling me that she can now go out with me. I sometimes wonder if it is hope or an illusion that is keeping me wondering about her. She has my contact, she knows where i am. However, i'm not sure if i even want to keep blogging without thinking that she might be reading these posts. I simply need to find a way to move on...